Sunday, September 30, 2007

Fallin'

I fell this way again and I don't know why. Maybe it's because he's not around, maybe it's because life seems different now that I've come home. I want to wake up and be beautiful. I know it won't happen, and I have started this vicious cycle of restraint, overeating, feeling more lousey about myself and restraining even more. I am determined to lose it all this time.

But why?

I have friends and a boy and a family who love me. I do well for myself. I have done wonderful things.

So why?

I look in the mirror and hate what I see. I thought I was over this. I thought I had gained control. Or maybe I lost it and I am trying to get it back.

I will be in control.

Monday, September 17, 2007

You're Quiet

Okay, so I know that I have been especially lame with this blog lately. I am not sure if I really have an excuse except for the fact that I love sleep.

So, I will be posting some pictures from Paris and Italy. Being back in the States now, it feels like it was all a dream.

I also have a few good stories from the start of the school year. Living with four girls is proving interesting. My birthday was mega rad and involved me sporting an "I'm legal" shirt all day long.

Hopefully you will hear from me shortly. Like the lyrics say, I did not die, I am not there.